One tear in the dropping rain
One voice in a sea of pain
Could the Maker of the stars
Heart the sound of my breaking heart?
He's the Creator of the Universe. The King of Kings & Lord of Lords. The Lion of Judah. The Great I Am. The Resurrection & the Life. Yet, He loves me? me?
That's pretty crazy, isn't it? I'm just one life, one person out of the billions of others around the world, let alone the number of people that have gone before me and the people yet to come in this world. If you think about it, I'm pretty insignificant. So why would the God above all others love me? I just think it's amazing. As the lyrics above from the song Hold My Heart by Tenth Avenue North ask, how could the Maker of the stars care about us so much? I can't comprehend it and probably never will, but it's a wonderful feeling to know that someone so great loves me so much. It's incredible to know that God cares about my tears and my hurts, my needs and my desires. I love the description of God as our King; a king is royalty, above all others. The people in his kingdom are supposed to lay down their life for their king, yet our King layed down His life for us!
Just remember that you are loved & not just loved by anyone but by the Creator of the Universe! :)
As my senior year is winding down, I've begun to realize just how soon I'll be finished with highschool and headed off to college. It's one of those things that you know will come someday, but you never really think about how quickly it will get here, you know what I mean? & I'll be honest, I'm pretty scared about it.
I'm one of those people who absolutely hate getting out of my comfort zone. It's called a comfort zone for a reason & I want to stay there! I'm comfortable right here in little Camden, SC with all the people I've grown up with and gone to school with for 12 years. I'm comfortable in a place where I know where everything is and I know what to do and where to go. That's probably why I'm so nervous about college. I'm nervous about going to a place where I hardly know anybody or anywhere. I'm nervous about playing a college sport. I'm nervous about making friends, signing up for the right classes and getting kind teachers. & really, I'm only going 30 minutes away and I'll have my sister there with me! How pathetic is that?
But just the other day I was reading the book of Esther, and realized how much I could learn from her response to her situation. Esther faced death (!) yet she pushed through her fear and did what was required of her to save her people. If she can face death and not let her fears hinder her, I'm pretty sure I can face college :) One of my favorite verses is the dialogue between Esther and Mordecai:
"...you may have been chosen for such a time as this."
It gives me peace knowing that God cares even about my petty fears and that he has a purpose for me at Coker College. He won't just desert me and make me face it all alone; there is a reason I'm supposed to be there and I can't let my fear of being uncomfortable keep me from doing what God wants me to do. Another verse in that same chapter gives me the courage to look past what frightens me and to push through. Esther says:
"Then I will go to the king, even though it is against the law, and if I die, I die."
If Esther had the courage and strength to face death for the purpose God called her to, then I can face my fears of being uncomfortable as well.
